Moving on for Diamond

"So, that was how that phase ended" was all that flooded Diamond’s mind, an uptown girl in her twenties. She was deep in thought on her bed, her right elbow on her knees, and hand on her face.

She had been a chronic heartbreaker in times past, falling in 'love' and getting undecided [despite that strong feeling of love struggling within her].

She would walk out on such affectionate relationships extremely hurt and in tears, whether with people she was 'officially' an item with; or with people who just got more and more attracted and attached to her and vice versa.

I'll take you through the reason for her depressing mood. Diamond got up one evening. Bored and restless, she decided to take a stroll. She was on a major road, headphone in her ears and lost in the music. For that little moment, it felt like she had no worries.

She strolled joyfully, a bit unaware of the peculiarities of her environment until a "Hello" penetrated her music and the joyful atmosphere she basked in, 'awakening' her to the presence of a young man whom she had seen occasionally, but never said a word to.

"Hello", he said again offering his hand for a handshake. Realising what was going on, she removed her headphone and put forth her hand to receive his. "Hi" she responded. With a calm and gentle voice that could instantly melt hearts, he said "I'm Stanley." They chatted heartily and parted ways, unknown to any of them that something was brewing between them.

As time passed, Stanley’s concerns slowly and steadily became Diamond’s. Always longing for his company, laughing broadly whenever she spoke with him. Her heart skipped a beat each time she saw Stanley. His phone call was enough to make her day.

Stanley gradually became her fairytale, though the indecision lingered. She was certain she loved a lot of things about him but she still was unsure of her readiness for a deeper relationship with him.

Stanley had thought Diamond very special. A kind of woman he admired due to her outspoken attribute. He would never have believed that it would be one of his reasons for withdrawing from her.

He was captivated by her manner of speech, behaviour, simplicity, innocence, and strength to wade through very difficult moments.

But Diamond was fond of engaging in a battle of words at any opportunity before her, though Stanley did not mind and would let her rave unending. This and some other occurrences almost tore them apart.

Despite the hitches, they both continued indulging each other. It didn’t take long before Diamond began to notice a gap between them. She could barely come to grips with the reason for their dearth of communication.

Stanley gradually became busier than he routinely was. At some time, he seemed to be too tired to return Diamond’s phone calls.

It was hard. Still she fought back her feelings for him. She finally decided to keep a mutual relationship with her crush.

The icing on the cake came when Stanley rung her. She had tears forming in her eyes when he said huskily: “I thinks it's best if we both relate just as friends.”

She got his message clearly. He couldn’t give her what she wanted. Diamond protested that she wanted nothing from him, though not sure if she meant it. “I’ve thought it over for some days and this is my conclusion,” he cut in.

Dear Diamond has lost her sense of humour, joy and cheerful attitude. She’s been caught absent minded and making silly mistakes at work. She ponders on the day she met Stanley on the road and how they talked and got fond of each other.

Tears well up within her and she rebukes their effrontery by telling herself "No way are you crying, so hush!"

She misses a great deal about Stanley but doesn't feel convinced that she wants to even stay friends with him because she is heartbroken.

It doesn't feel like an easy task but she gets up from her bed determined to be strong and define every form of friendship that comes her way. This is the point of moving on for Diamond.